Yoo peeps.
It's been awhile ever since i'm back to posting..
Lol. Actually i gt nth much to post tdy.
Just post for the sake of posting.
Heee...
Damn it man. I gt mixed up with my CT timing tdy =="
Supposely to start at 8:30am-10am.
Bt i tot the CT was starting at 11am-1230pm :x
Luckily Yong Ji called me.
Arbo i go there tio stunned ttm. =="
Maybe i'm lacking of sleep..
I had been sleeping only 1-2hours daily omg.
I just dun feel like sleeping.
Bt i'm damn fking tired.
Hais...
What's going on with me?
Am i dying?
I gt a terrible backache...
And a terrible tummy ache tdy.
God knows what's going on with me =="
Omg....

Hope tmr i wun get mixed up with the CT timing ><"


[Jin-Xiang] - Nick = [DP]JX signing off...

Yoo guys.. :D
Hmm
What to post for today? LOL
Hmm let's start from morning?
Hmm wake up at 11am today,

Went to make breakfast and eat.
Taken medicine,
on the lappy and ready to write notes :D
Write until 12pm.
GO vista point help dad buy newspaper ==

Came back and resume my writing notes.
Chit chat with Sheng Hui along the way..
Until 2pm the CMS gt update.. -.-
Then went to have my lunch.
When was at about 3pm.
Dad ask me go buy lottery for him -.-

Came back sweating like wtf -.-
Hmm was facebooking from 4pm -6pm
Posted a super powerful comment to a girl .
Nope it's nt the girl whom i like.
Again..

I just wanna help those people whom i can..
I hope they will listen?
As usual...
My priority =
Help people 1st ..
Then family,
Then myself :S

I won't change my attitude of helping..
Cuz i know who cares :D

Sigh..
Oh well ...
I know u like someone..
I decided to let u go.
But i wish that u can find happiness with him.
I sincerely hope that u can be happy with him.
Cuz i know he will do a better job?

It's a closing chapter for this..
I decided to forget it.
I take this as a dream.
I close my eyes and...
Poof...
It's gone from my mind forever.
I will never regret doing it.

If only u were to peek my blog for the very last time
I hope u will.
This will be my final words for u in my blog. :)
Goodbye :D
Take care :)
May u find ur happiness soon :D

[Jin-Xiang] - Nick = [DP]JX signing off..

Hii guys...
Nt in the mood to blog today though..
Oh well...
Since nth to do, I will blog alittle at least?
Since there's nth to do..

All i can do now...
Is to study, eat, sleep.
Nth else...
Boring life...
Nerdy life...
Pointless to live..

I'm so freaking pissed of myself now..
Hw i wish there's a knife in front of me ...
So that i can cut myself n bleed...
Bleeding =/= a painful to me anymore
The pain that i have...
Is inexpressable..
No words can express it..
Nothing...

U guys can say i'm ruthless..
Maybe this is my life..
I gt to admit to it..
Cant do anything about it..
I'm so freaking retarded...
I'm stupid..
Nothing goes the way i wanted..
Am i too selfish?
Or...
Am i too greedy??

Friends say it isn't the right time yet..
I hope so...
I felt like giving up...
Really...
I'm running out of ideas to make her happy..
It seems like someone is able to make her happy ...
I feel happy for her...
I'm useless...
It's like ....
I'm an extra person beside her...

Oh well..
I cant say anything either..
I have no right to say in it.
That's the fact..

Why should i even care?
When she isn't fking care of who's ard her.
I'm so _|_ stupid..
Really..
I feel like crying..
But i know i cant..
I dun wan to let her know that I'm crying for her..
My heart is so freaking shattered now..
Who can mend it?

Her?
Ya right...
Nt even in my dream.
Jin Xiang...
U are a stupid FOOL...
People never even care about u..
Why the fuck u go care about her?
U are so stupid..
That's what my ex always say this to me..
If she's still around here...
She will definitely still say this to me.
JX ...
Why are u so stupid..

U will always think for others.
Instead of yourself...
Is it worth it?
Does she even care about it?
Think again..
Oh well no point writing to a dead script...
A script that suppose to be dead all along..
No point writing it much.
Even if i wrote..
Does she knows?
She knows nothing i guess.

Cuz she didn't even fking peek at it.
Nor find out..
1 reason..
Nt interested...
So WHY THE FUCK I CARE!
Nvm...
Fuck care bah..

Take it as a dream...
Hope time will heal the pain..
What if it doesn't...
What am i going to do?
Sigh...
If only u were there to accompany me..
I will be happy..
Even just for a caring second..
I will be smiling...

[Jin-Xiang] - Nick = [DP]JX signing off....

YooosSSHH!!
This is the 1st time i posted at this time!
WOooooT Spain 0-1 Switzerland.
What a nice score to have...
Alot of punders will scream off their heads.
Just becuz that Spain had lost the game.
Hehehehe :x
Sorry folks for the losing bet. :P

Hmm...
Well well, what do we have here...
Oh ya, GG my dad is nt working for 5 days..
So gt to endure his temper during this times :D.
After all, working is tiring . Plus He's sick.
He deserve a break still :D.
Hope he recovers soon. :P

My my my...
I spent the whole afternoon drawing my holiday assignment!
It's still short of 1 drawing for me to close the chapter for Auto-cad
for this holiday.

The most precious thing that i cherish is that...
I talked to the girl i liked for the whole night.
1st time ever.. Weee
She needed help and i helped her :D
And i even teach her regarding IT stuff.
She dunno what's torrent.
So i told her what's that all about hahas.

But...
Her downloading speed for the software she wanted,
is too slow till she fall asleep :x
Hahaha!
But i was there to keep her awake till this time?
LOLLOL!
Then came Gilford ,
told me about the score for Spain and Switzerland.
I couldn't believe my eyes that SPAIN LOSE!!
LOLLOL. LMAO!!
GG Spain.
No hope already, similar to England.

Hmm...
Man....
I created a new Garena account.
Name: LgD.JinXiang
I hope nobody will bm me.
But so far so good.
I shown the skills that a LGD person should be :D

Hmm...
I'm so dead tired...
But i still tink about her.
The more i tink,
The more i miss :(
I yawn to be with her.
But i doesn't have the courage to tell her..
May god give me a wraith of lightning.
To have the strength to tell her how i feel. :)
Like the DOTA character call ZEUS!
LOL!!

Alright...
I should stop blogging n go to bed.
Who knows what's coming for me next :)
Hope tmr will be a even btr day :D
GD night Pals n Buddies..
Oh ya ..
Royston!! Happy 19th birthday yeah!
Hope u enjoy urself with the chio bu LOL!

[Jin-Xiang] - Nick = LgD.JinXiang signing off..

Yoo peeps.
Here comes the 2 weeks holiday.
2 weeks nia...
So many work to do but yet so little time,
was planning to meet my project lecturer at 10am.
Afterwards go help Aaron to settle his Warcraft III issue,
I wonder what issue he's facing.

"Sigh"...
Didn't get to see her online today,
I feel like i'm just a lost innocence soul lost in a big open sea.
Waiting for someone to adopt me,
but no one came...
I wonder when will happen.. 1 year? 10 years?
Or the worst??
Forever never comes..

Oh well...
Spent my time at home doing the Autocad drawing.
Holiday assignment to hand in in 2 weeks time.
And...
Rushing the Semestral Project to let the lecturer see tomorrow.

"Sigh"
I feel that I'm somehow lost.
But not knowing what's wrong.
It's like I lacked of colors in my life?
Not sure though...
I hate this feeling ...
It SUCKS to the max -.-"

Who can change me?
Anyone??
No one?
Oh well, no one will even knows who am I.
I'm just a junk..
A junk that...
No one wants at all.

Maybe i should run off to a faraway place.
A place that no one will know that
I exist at all.
No one...
Peace and quiet.
A black n white life.
That's the place I'm living in now.

Oh well..
NO point writing here,
when nobody cares.
No one cares at all.
What's the point of living in such a miserable life?
Should i end it?
Who can help me?
No one at all.

Maybe i shouldn't even be here in the 1st place
Life sucks.
In a way that's...
that's....
Inexpressible..
Useless.
Hopeless...
Loss of words...

I really hope she can save me.
I really look forward to it.
Otherwise i will go to a place...
A place....
where no one can find me..
Not even her.

What's the point of writing if there's no one here seeing it
I must be nuts --"

Oh well...
Guess it's time to say goodbye..
I hope tomorrow will be better
A day which i always yawn for,
even if it's just a dream...
If you know it,
Try to fulfill it
"Sigh"

[Jin-Xiang] - Nick = [DP]JX signing off...

There is nothing left for me
There is nothing left for you
There is nothing left at all
A wasteland of my mind

Don’t think you ever will see
Don’t think you ever will know
How much I actually cared
About everything we shared

Why the fuck did you lie then?
Why in hell did you bring me down?
Don’t you realize?
No one gets out of this place alive

Hasn’t been screaming all these years
Just to see the world crashing around me
Maybe this life is overrated
But I won’t let the world burn around me

A situation like this should never exist
Then why are we out of control
I see smoke from the Eden fire
Watch it going higher and higher

You pulled me up from the dream
Let’s compare scars, you and I
You are always on my mind
I will never leave you behind
You broke my engagement to solitude
And made me threw away the ring of retaliation

Maybe this life is overrated
But I won’t let the world burn around me

A situation like this should never exist
Then why are we out of control
I see smoke from the Eden fire
Watch it going higher and higher

Hasn’t been screaming all these years
Just to see the world crashing around me
Maybe this life is overrated
But I won’t let the world burn around me

A situation like this should never exist
Then why are we out of control

A situation like this should never exist
Then why are we out of control
I see smoke from the Eden fire
Watch it going higher and higher

A situation like this should never exist
Then why are we out of control
I see smoke from the Eden fire
Watch it going higher and higher

Hiies peeps.
Haiz it's a disappointing day today. I tot i was doing great for the semestral project but it seems like there's rm for improvement n the lecturer is disappointed T_T. Oh well i'm the only 1 doing it so ya, gt to work extra hard. 3 members work = i'm the only 1 doing it. Arghh!! I tink i can do btr than this. The lecturer gib us till monday, latest tuesday to submit a neat n good work for him.
I hope i can do it. :S
Argh i'm so pissed of myself, it seems nth went into the correct path no matter what i do -.-"
I'm so kinda useless . Useless that i cant do anything well. I hate myself.
I sometimes do question myself. Why humans lives...
Human... What's the target in life?
Be a successful person? With Joy, care and sadness?? Then why am i getting all the sadness instead of the JOY n CARE!! It' abit unfair :(
ARGH i'm so freaking hate myself now. I start to think, maybe i shld give up jio-ing the girl i like. It will only make me feel hurt when i couldn't get her if i kept tinking of it. Oh well maybe time is nt at my side. The time wasn't right that's all i can say.
Hais.... I'm so useless. HOPELESS.... Feel like crying out. But i just cant.. I really cant.. hais...
Oh well will write again soon peeps.


[Jin-Xiang] - Nick = [DP]JX